What a weekend!
A requiem is a mass for the dead or a musical setting for such. I had the opportunity to go the ballet en femme to see Mozart’s Requiem and it was brilliant. This was Mozart’s final composition before his death and is thought of in some circles as one of his most powerful works. The theme of death and honoring those who have lost their lives in modern conflict was first and foremost in this production but life always re-appears and hope springs eternal. A re-birth of sorts if you will.
Spending the evening at the Ballet en femme was fun too. It is always great to get an opportunity to go out and indulge in your self expression. I was disappointed that when I first got there I seemed to have been “read” by a couple before I even got in the door but overall I think it went very well. That vast majority of people did not notice anything unusual and the ones who had a glance probably could not decide so all was well. Still a bit nerve wracking for the first little while but you relax as the night goes on.
A special friend ~L~ was gracious enough to invite me (in a gorgeous velvet dress she made for me, the same one I wore to see the Opera Madame Butterfly some years ago!) to see this ballet with her. It’s been a long time since I have done anything with this individual as sometimes in life you make choices that can have a negative impact on your relationship(s) and those around you. I’ve done that and have learned from it. I try to live my life with integrity and honesty displayed first and foremost where in the past I have shown weakness and primariliy thought of myself rather than others who were important in my life. A bitter pill to swallow but I am a far better person for recognizing these flaws in my character and correcting them. You can’t fix the past but you can move forward and not repeat the mistakes you’ve made
Time passes, people change and move on. We’ve started talking again and everyone concerned has mostly come to terms with the past and we are starting to more forward and re-develop friendships/relationships and to learn about how one another has changed. This opportunity to accompany her to the ballet was a big step for me in this process and an enjoyable evening all around as the evening was topped off with popping into a friends 50th birthday celebration. Even though we got there late after the Ballet the number of people there was impressive and highlighted the importance of your friends and developing the relationships you have.
The ballet seemed especially fitting as in many ways it was a re-birth of an old relationship where not long ago this would not have happened. The symbolism of this did not escape me. She’s also agreed to let me practice my fireplay on her so that’s an added bonus I’m quite excited about!
As well as the re-kindling of old relationships new ones are developing. Another wonderful lady I have been talking with and went out with once came around to play a bit of live “Barbie” with me such as having a play with hairstyles and I gave her a bit of a fashion show. I was really pleased she took the time out to come around and spend some time with me showing me various things and having a bit of a play on working with “what I’ve got”.
My girlfriend and life partner has been awesome thoughout this. We’re both doing a bit of exploring of the things we like to do with others and provided it is managed carefully I think this can be fufilling for all those involved. In many ways I found this weekend very rejuvinating. I’ve been needing an extra spring in my step for awhile as I was getting pre-occupied with work and perhaps missing out on the people and things going on outside of that environment.
The past, present and future all seemed to play a role this past weekend and what an awesome weekend it was!
Donna, I am so pleased to see that you and ~L~ are getting past the past and rekindling your friendship. I dont get out much, which is harder on me than you probably know. It does mean that I sometimes miss things like the renewing of the friendship between both of you.
I have never seen you crossdressed where you didn’t easily pass. You do it very well, and I think it is awesome. I could probably get tips from you! I dont wear make up often, when I do I like to do it well. You seem to always been impeccably groomed always. male or female dress. me? i have trouble maintaining something resembling a haircut. lol. Its a good thing that I dont have the time and energy to mind what some people think.
Anita